Letter to God

Dear God,

I know you are the one doing this to me again. This time it’s really not funny. I don’t think that it is coincidental that just two days ago Eddie and I had discussed the possibility of fostering or adopting another child and decided not to do it for at least a few more years so that we could use this time to concentrate on Nicholas (of course Abby too, but I mean focus on Nicholas’ difficult issues) and then the same day there was a computer glitch that caused me to get an unsolicited (meaning it was sent to me even though I hadn’t contacted them) out-of-office automatic reply email dated a month ago from the Diakon foster care agency here in PA. And now today I get an email from a social worker I emailed a year and a half ago who did not get that email until yesterday?! And she is writing to give me more information on how to foster children in Pennsylvania. Are you serious? Don’t you think you are being just a little bit pushy?

There is kind of a lot on my plate right now just dealing with the first child you brought us out of the foster care system. (As you are aware, I just had to take a break from writing this because he was running around stark naked.) Is this your response to my Call for Suggestions? To add another one? (or more) Not funny. Not to mention that, as I am sure you are fully aware, Eddie’s heart is not open to this right now. In the future if you are going to be calling on us to do these kinds of things do you think you could go through him? It would be really great if I didn’t have to worry about being the middle man again.

If this is what you really want then fine, but it’s not just up to me. This time we both are going to need a lot more convincing, sorry. Hope you understand.

Love,
Steph